General Conference

I always get excited for conference weekend. It seems that each conference there is something in there, just for me. My favorite talk was by Sister Beck, the Relief Society President. I am homesick...for home. For the 2.75 years of my Munchkin's life, I have worked almost full time for almost all of it. There is nothing more than I want right now than to me home. It's interesting to talk to people about this desire of mine, and how much stronger it is now that we are preparing to bring another child into this world. Hikari and I have talked about this many times, and he says that even he has had people question why. For five years I worked in a bank and the environment was very friendly to the idea of me as a mother. I was able to nurse for the first year of her life, and pumped while I was at work, because that was very important to me. However, I have found that now that I work in Salt Lake, especially, I am questioned on why I would want to be home. Two years ago, I got my certificate as a paralegal. I found a job working as an office manager in Salt Lake. And while those in my office don't really question my desires, I work in a place with many offices and I've gotten to know many people. They wonder why I'm not pursuing my career as a paralegal, and how successful I could be, and how much more I can make. When I tell that that I just want to be home, it's met with questions. Why? Why quit when I could make more money working? Why don't a want a career for myself? Why do I want to babysit for the rest of my life. I knew all the reasons why, and it was simply, because I want to be a mom who is home with her children. I feel like I have had to jusitfy my reasons for just wanting to be a mom. Until Sunday. When Sister Beck talked about the importance of being a mother and raising righteous children, I knew I was on the right path. I am glad to be a part of something that values mother's so much. I wonder if I'm doing enough to teach our little munchkin the things that she needs to know to arm herself against the evils that have become so much bigger than I ever remember when I was growing up. But then I also can take comfort knowing that for these last few months that I do need to work, my munchkin is in the hands of a loving grandmother and a loving aunt who love her very much, and have the same wishes for her as I do. I have appreciated thier love and support more than they will ever know. I can only hope that I can do as good a job as I want to. I am raising the next generation, and am honored to be a part of that.